Sunday, July 18, 2010
Have you ever wonder...
Who understand you the most, inside out?
Your friend?
Your best friend?
Your boyfriend?
Your girlfriend?
Your siblings?
Your parents?
Your relative or whoever?
For me, To me..
Will be somebody who watched me grow up since the day I'm born, other than my parents & sibling I grown up with.
They are the ones, who understands me inside out. Everybody gone through different, different thing in their life. And because they are the ones who exactly know what i have gone through.. That's why they know what's on my mind, deep in my heart, how i feel & what affected me. I might not tell, because they know I am such a person who keep almost every unhappiness to myself. Regardless how unhappy i am, i doubt anyone see me cry before. HAHA! Other than maybe them, my family.. Well, family doesn't mean only my parents and siblings.. Because 'that' is when i can eventually blast out with tears & failed to hide. (past)
Frankly speaking, I don't think anyone truly understand me, although I might tell you... but how much i said, how much you know, it's just very very partial of it. Because you are not the one, who see what's actually happened & things i had gone through, THEY ARE.
Maybe friends who knows me well.. You would realised, or know.. It's very seldom i talk about my past & my childhood. I hate to think back, although I love&hate to recall, even a little i wanna speak out somehow. Too lazy, too tired, too much, it's more than enough. And now, I am already used to put everything behind-hind-hind-hind-hind, far behind, back of my brain, won't bother to recall, won't bother to think. Might be trying to avoid or maybe i had already accepted. Well, Of course happiness will stay. :)
I love my papa, mama & everyone in my family, I love people who love me, who cares for me. I love them. I have grown up & yeah, 18th this year, time passed so quickly. I am used to everything, everything that happened. What happen, happened.. Now those doesn't matter, anymore, any longer. Because I know & had learnt to do now is to put the past behind & live happier, better than ever. Learning to speak out when needed to. Because I have grown up !
:D I will live happily & better because everyone wants me to & not only they want me to, because I WANT TO TOO !
(V)