Thursday, January 14, 2010
I'm scare. I'm worried. I'm unhappy.
I need to make my decision wisely & quickly.
I often tell people, this is what you have to go through in life.
Everyone needs to make their decision, the right choice to have better life ahead.
Now, Its my turn to make a choice & this time, its a very tough one.
Either i success or i fail. I don't want to disappoint anyone, anymore.
Neither i want to disappoint myself once again. I don't want fill my life with regrets. I want to be happier than happy.
Daddy, Mummy often thought i could manage my studies on my own.
Needless them to worry so much for me & I think i had really disappointed this time round.
Scored such results, Its just feel like hiding myself up, to face them.
My study just gone down the drain last year. I admitted I'm playful, didn't really focus much on my studies.
Now, I had promised Mummy.. I would study hard this year & score for the better.
I had requested to study O'level at the same time while I'm taking Higher Nitec.
Well, People might think i'm mad, crazy or something. Even myself also think so.
This is an extremely big risk, i ever in my 17years life.
An extremely big jump from what i studied in secondary school & ITE.
I need to learn from NA Secondary 3 to Secondary 5 ! Wow i know.
I need to get everything memorise in less than 6months ! This is freak !
Its lots lots of money for the examination, tuition's, assessments & etc..
I don't want to waste Daddy, Mummy's hard-earn money.
I need to success, I cannot disappoint them again this time round.
Look at people who are gonna take O'level this year...
Seem to be gonna freak-out ! Studying like mad
dogs!
I will be like one trm or maybe few hours later ! Stressing!
This makes me scare.....
I know its not the time to run away, Its time to face it & take that bloody hell challenge !
Nothing can beat you down until you push urself down.
I need to hang on ! No fooling around ! Its time to get serious !
You say you can,
You can.
Although, the results might not be what you expected it to be...
At the very least, you had tried your best, very best, give it all.
Again, I would say this to myself again !
"I CAN DO IT!"
& Yes I Can !
Trust me,
Never give up on me,
I will proof to you somedays !
Motivation !