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Thursday, January 22, 2009

Well,

Think back.. the once upon..
Tats how well you change urself & treat me tat good.
Make me feels like you are the important person to me.
Remember there was once, you met an accident while biking.
You think you can't get over tis, you may be gone.
On the way to the hospital, you texted me tis something like tat...
"if i'm gone, do take good care of urself..
Anything find *, i believe he will help you..
No matter wat i still love you.."
Oh well, tat moment was like moi tears rushing out of moi eyes & i'm controlling it.
how i wish, i'm able to head down to hospital at tat second yet i'm not able to.
I onli can sat down there, texting * about ur condition & i can't help.

Next day, after skool. rushed to hospital wif *&*..
Seeing you lying on the bed, can't move. ur neck & arms were bandage, face was scar & blah.
At tat moment, Fortunately, thanks GOD! you are fine..
Well, stayed for awhile.. speechless, still spoke to you.. replied wif ur BAD BREATH* Laughs.
Wanted to kiss you on the forehead, telling you "hey, i will be there always" yet ur sister was there. & onli thing i can say is goodbye.
Tat few days, really crack moi head whether to accept you.
feeling getting strong, a feeling like i never had.
Between tat few days, you are discharge from hospital & you woke up early in the morning wif you MC & bandage arm, walked to moi house, went skool wif me. Carried moi heavy bag for me wif one hand even i refused to. touch*
Few days had past, no more heisting accepted you on 1 feb.
Tat day was the most memorable one for us. drew it everywhere. :)
Skool together, same seat. you are always the one beside me. sleeping like a pig. didn't study until i ask you to. & wif the unbearable feelings to ask you up, i did ur work for you then handed in to teacher. You had ur food wif ur friends & i had mine. We onli had food twice together in skool. We onli actually went out ones wif our home clothes yet the outing was like separated. You shopped wif ur friend & I shopped wif mine. Laughs. Once, we walked hand in hand to ur void deck ones then i realised, the distance from moi house to urs., been a week plus plus. i was wondering, wat the heck you don't hold moi hands & i so wanna hold urs. Asked you why & the few days later, you fianlly had the guts to hold mine & you held it tightly wif the smile on ur face. how blissful it was. On the way to ur house, realised Its quite far apart. & i wonder how early you nid to prepare & walk to moi house tat early. I never failed you for waiting for me. Wif u blasting of music waited for me. As i'm coming down, took a look at downstair. Tat was you sitting at the bench like a fool, waiting for me. I'm downstair, always wanna scare you yet i failed. There was once, raining heavily tat nite, floor slippery in the morning & you fell while heading to moi house & dirtied you pants. Aww.. feels bad at tat moment & you show me how you actually head to moi house wif those dangerous short cuts. D: Aww. Oh, I remembered i onli lied on ur shoulder trice, once onli wif our arm together & tat was the most comfortable one ever. There was once, it rains too.. wif the umbrella held in ur hand & other holding mine tight headed to skool. tat was how loving. While we were together, you were so afraid to let ur parents know about it by telling me tat you were afraid tat they tease you. Oh well, i feels like laughing & oso unhappi about it, quarrelled quite a numba of time about it. Well, there was times tat you are jealous when i get too close to * & makes you really unhappi. I tried to put a distance between me & *. Certainly, looks like you were kind of unhappi wif those changes you made for me, yet you were willing to change. You changed quite alot for me, seriously i know. Ur piercing was more than a million, ur vulgar was more than the word you spoke, ur trouble-making was more than the things you studying & you had totally change those habit i dislike, to the better. Quarrelled wif you if you did do those stuff.. Aww, think back feels like i'm unreasonable & not understanding somehow. Tat is you & i should love you for who you are. but think twice, its better for you to change then being like tat. isn't it. 1month celebration, wif tat sakea sushi treat of urs & oso went shopping at tampines mall & century square straight after skool. :D was a happy 1month seriously.. Things getting smoothly until i saw tis on ur table, writing the feelings of urs. Aww.. & without asking you, i chose to broke off & i hellllly regretted tat i didn't ask you clearly.. Tat day, heading home, you was lying on moi shoulder, sleeping & tat was ur first time there to do tat. I'm controlling moi tears from flowing down as i decided to break. You sent me home & waited for me downstairs as we were going to the stadium. Yet, i sent you the break message. Well, i feels tat i'm so cruel, shouldn’t had send tat in fact. You really breakdown. At tat second i was like, i could rush down & find you out yet i didn't. Called you, texted you & get no reply from you. Aww.. feels really bad.
Time passed, we did patch yet ending up, had no reason why broke off again.. & started hearing me calling me bitch & tat was the horrible time ever.. The worst thing was we had to face each other everyday in class. Just don't know how to face you or even speak to you. Getting frustrated wif those name you called me & oso you started being a bastard to me too. Had totally no idea why you hate me so much. I don't think i did anything wrong in fact. From tat day on, you changed really from bad to worst.. You started smoking, & i'm the one leads you to tat. Once you told me, you hate smoking, good boy. & troubles getting from million to billion. Suspended & Expelled from skool & not much chance to see each other anymore. wondering how are you, didn't ask. & time passsssed, a year plus plusss..

Now, horrible time is over. our relationship getting better.
You willing to share ur personal stuff wif me without let others knowing first.
& you told me tis just now.
"you moi ex mah, dumb.""you know me well.."
Yes, i do know you well. I know you are actually a good guy.
Ppl gave bad impression of you due to ur look & attitude, yet i'm always not those ppl.
Tats how well i know you, dumb & tats how lazy you are !
I see you HIGH UP in ur Tattoo cereer yo.
Must have determination alright.
Ur life, ur choice, you choose tis path & make sure you do well.
Do remember wat I told you just now.
Even I know you are not gonna read moi blog.
I just hope tat our relationship can get better. :)

Blah Blah Blah,
end wif those lousy & sweet stories.
share blog real soon.
so many things wanna share but i just have no time. i'm sorry..
sooooon sooooon alright. :D

GOOD NITE ppl !
shopping wif girlfriends trm. Aww!
gonna be extremely great.