Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Darling;Miko Heart NO good !PURPLE hearted ! ♥ & i still love her so~
Yesterday was the
last day of work in OCBC.. alright, every was quite fine.. Surprisingly i
don't feel tat tired & restless.. Quite
energetic.. HAHA! Somehow quite
numb wif the work already, tat's why.. Went to slack wif Darling
TWICE.. a 20mins one until moi PC kanna lock & other 10mins one.. HAHA! ;D OT & knock off at 7plus gonna wait.. Stomach
grumbling, head for dinner at Century Square, food junction.. Settled down & had our meal, Later off for window shopping awhile.. Nothing else to shop, headed to bus stop.. Accompany Darling to wait for her bus & while waiting coincidence saw Kai Xun, Damien & company.. Somehow, feels tat Kai Xun is kind of
Cute in some way..
OoopXxx.. Ppl who
don't know him, may felt tat he is a
bad guy due to his appearances & attitude but overall he is quite a
friendly guy, if you
do know him well.. Somehow, was thinking back, those
memories tat truely
touches me, Tot while i'm actually working yesterday as Darling & i was actually chatting little about him while slacking yesterday.. Just
thinking back.. :) OK, Darling boarded the bus & i headed to moi bus stop too.. While waiting for tat
"Green Man" to cross the road, by coincidence saw Yong Qing too.. Wow! He accompany waited for bus, & went off.. Heard something
WTH from him, Shiuan Huar
nearly kanna whack by those
"gangsters" just now, due to his attitude..
OH-MY-GOD,
can anyone help him to change his attitude.. If not
one day he will surely get into trouble.. & hey,
know wat?! the person wanna whack him yesterday is studying in College East & how
"lucky" is he, oso going there to study next year..
OH-MY-GOD, i
can't imagine.. I
hope everything will be just fine for him & oso may Yong Qing take
good care of him..
Never i want see him wif bruises on his body or even bleeding~
Choy!.. Hope not.. Alright, i'm home.. Lappy awhile.. Chatted wif Darling on the phone & knock off at 3plus gonna 4a.m.. :)
Woke up at afternoon.. Tv, Lunch.. Tidied the room for the whole day..
WOW issit it?.. tired* HAHA! Blah, tears falling just now.. Due to something.. & now, its swollen PLUS hurting.. Alright, i'm kind of stress or maybe depression(?) i think not.. I'm just stress.. Nearly wanna to jump down from moi window(?) tot of tat, & imagine i'm on the ground.. Well, been study really hard & get good grades but somehow, i feels tat i'm kind of USELESS.. No one actually bothers.. & i'm living in a disaster home, No one gonna like it.. Ppl who actually don't know or even know me will feel tat i have actually EVERYTHING but the facts is i have NOTHING.. really NOTHING & i'm not happy.. Why can't i just live happily like others, everything simply so SUCKs since young & it getting worst & worst.. She says tis & He said tat.. & ya, they said tat.. Almost the same thing, onli different ppl saying it.. She says something like its for UR OWN GOOD & He says something like its for UR OWN GOOD but actually somehow, its for THEIR OWN GOOD(?) They told me how they feels but Did they ever cares wat i actually feels.. They simply act like they knows everything as wat i think, how i feel but they don't even know anything.. MONEY, MONEY, MONEY.. i starting to hate money as money leads to sooooooo... much of unhappiness than happiness.. Somehow, i feels like i'm actually a puppet.. They have been pushing & pulling here & there.. Don't even bother how i actually feels & think.. I'm really ENOUGH.. how i wish, i'm RICH, have moi own home, living wif moi sisters.. Don't nid to spend a single cents of theirs.. Will they be happier in tat way(?) Will they(?).. Issit gonna be better in tat way(?) Everything is just so.............. hump, i'm totally disappointed & Utterly speechless but in the bottom of moi heart i knows they really do loves sister & i very much.. Ya, tats wat i can say.. Oh ya, & HIM actually had a quarrel wif HER just now.. hope EVERYTHING will be just fine.. Alright, was chatting wif Darling just now.. hung off at 2plus.. Finally can lappy.. Now going to sleep..
Alright,
1more day to NEW year;
2009..
EXCITED (?) not really..
Have
no planning for trm for
COUNTDOWN..
very shag, don't know where to go..
Jia Ling;Mei actually ask me out wif her & her friends tat i actually don't know.. PLUS all so younger than me.. hump, somehow i feels
weird.. NOT becos of their age, its becos of the ppl.. Still thinking whether to go not..
See whether trm whether anyone text me trm not lo..
Shall wait..
Trm have to wake up
SUPER duper early around 6plus in the morning like tat as i'm going for tat ITE interview, registration PLUS buying the skool stuff.. &
FINALLY he transfer money for me.. At least i'm still able to study, i
tot i'm not going to anymore.. hump, alright..
wasted so much tears..
Thanks sisters for cheering me & oso tried to help me when i nid help.. They were there & they will be always there..
Alright, end end.. moi eyes hurting badly.. Oh ya, hope Darling's battery will be ok by trm & oso mine.. :)
GOOD NITE ppl,spend ur
LAST day of 2008 wonderfully..
Great Start & Do ends everything
happily~
Ppl do
enjoy urself trm !
Have fun !Labels: I realised i actually fine no one to speak moi troubles to and i do nid someone to be there to listen.. Alright. hope everything will go smoothly~