Wednesday, October 15, 2008
12.3oa.m~4.30p.mIn moi room..On moi bed..Sleeping..woke up in the morning at 5plus to 6plus..had breakfast, slept back again.. :)Awake, doing nothing much..use moi lappy, had moi "lunch", watched tv, chatted on phone awhile..ok! boring~~ Supposed to go out wif DEAR today but cancelled..Looks like Mum don't allow cos i kept on going out recently..Maid cooked dinner for the family..She cooks not bad..had moi dinner, took moi shower..moi mum's friend came to moi house..little noisy her, but alright.. LOL! I'M sososososososo BORING !& having little mood swing..feeling heavy~~ hump..have no idea why.. hais..we have been together for 6months going to 7months..
i know you do love me..
i know you really care for me..
i know you trying to be moi perfect boifriend..
i know you will always be there..
& now..
we are just so different from before..
i know the matter lies on me..
i had no idea wats wrong wif me too..
i'm always just feeling not right due to people eyes & feeling of mine..
you told me you miss the past of ours..same do i..
i want tis relationship of ours to last..
i don't want to lose you but can i?..
you told me you kinda 'xie mu' of those loving couples walking on the street..
& we are oso couple but why we are not?..
i don't meant to like tat, but i have no idea why..
i'm have no idea why i so afraid to look into ur eyes now..
i know i make you kinda not happi due to moi unhappiness..
it's make me feels kinda guilty..
you had given in alot..
& due to moi selfishness, i'm not..
i will try to stable the feeling of mine..
tis may be the cold war of ours now..
as all relationship will have..
if we are able to pass tis level, i think everything will be alright..
i thank for everything
&
i'm oso sorry for everything